lyjerria:

you can’t fight for men that don’t see their toxic patterns. they’re not even fighting for themselves.

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just-shower-thoughts:

People born in September were either conceived due to a drunken new years hook up, or a well thought out new years plan.

Never have I ever

Met a person who gets upset when another person wants to know what they did or said that caused their feelings to get hurt so that they can apologize and not do it again the next time around. Like I never met someone who tells someone that they’re asking what’s wrong for themselves when the whole point of asking what’s wrong is to know what wasn’t nice and keep it in mind for the next time. And I don’t understand, nor have I ever met, a person who will really turn something sincere like wanting to apologize into something bad.

Like how many times do people get their feelings hurt and wish that the person who did the hurting would take their feelings into consideration and ask what was wrong about what they did or said so that they can say sorry and not repeat it. How many times do people’s feelings go hurt in silence because another person didn’t take the time to notice a mood change and thought everything was fine, and they just felt bad about that shit for the rest of the day.

Like I never met a person to twist something like that into something bad. I never met someone who responds negatively to someone who’s taking their feelings into consideration.

And it’s funny cause it’ll be the same person to hurt my feelings and then get mad at me for having my feelings hurt and get mad at me for being upset about something they said or did instead of taking my feelings into consideration and asking why I’m upset and apologizing for it.

My confidence depletes more and more by the day because I just feel like anything I do is not good enough. 7/10 times I’m getting a negative response to shit that doesn’t need a negative response and to explain that is impossible when someone reacts like a brick wall.

And I’ve tried to turn these shitty moments into lessons so that I can get something out of a bad situation but honestly, it increases my insecuriew in the relationship because even when I’m trying to do a good thing, it’s taken badly and it’s the biggest mindfuck. I have to remind myself that it’s not wrong of me to do some of the things I do despite this other person making me feel like it is wrong just because they react to it badly. If I didn’t do that, I think I’d be fucked up.

I’ve been reading books on compassion and just being a person that wants the people I care about to feel like I will never hurt them and if I do hurt them, that I am willing to apologize but I feel like there’s a lack of compassion towards me. The whole idea is that we treat others as we would wanna be treated, and remember that everyone is capable of feeling bad therefore we gotta make it our job to not contribute to it. Yet it’s like that is never applied to me and when I feel bad, I’m taken down before being lifted up. Or I’m blamed for it. Or I’m just the crazy one or I’m the one who started it or I’m the one who’s ignored. It’s never just narrowed down to I’m a human being, something hurt my feelings which feels just the same as when someone hurts another person’s feelings. There’s no difference, just the context of what hurt my feelings differs but the shit feels the same way and everybody experiences that shit.

And the moment I take this idea into practice and wanna ask how I hurt somebody’s feelings, they react so badly. Like it makes no sense to me, I’m a person who’s always wishing that my feelings would be taken seriously and that people will apologize to me when my feelings are hurt without arguing with me and making me feel bad about being upset, so for someone to take it badly blows my mind.

“Real compassion is not just an emotional response. It is a firm, thought out commitment. Therefore, an authentic attitude of compassion does not change, even when faced with another person’s negative behavior. - as long as human beings feel pleasure and pain as you do, there is no logical basis that authorizes you to establish distinctions or to diminish your solicitude to them, even when their attitude is negative.”

“True compassion does not stem from the pleasure of feeling close to one person of another, but from the conviction that other people are just like me and want not to suffer but to be happy, and from a commitment to help them overcome what causes them to suffer. I must realize that I can help them suffer less. That is true, well thought out compassion.”

lonely–nobody:

reblog if you’re a little lost in life rn

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nakedbybria:

meilintheempressofdreams:

Reblog for unexpected $$$ dropping into your Bank account.

yes.

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